Drowning

The pain is consuming me and like a river

I'm drowning in it, The pain is over my head,

I can't escape, I can't swim. I'm left floating

in the pain and there's no land around for me

to escape, just the hurt of drowning.

Bleeding heart

The bleeding heart

Flower of Broken Love!

In his arms

I still lay in bed wishing

I was I was laying in

his arms....

But it will never be

again and some how

I have to fave that.

Nightmares

The nightmares wont go away
and every night there the same...

The mans doing it to me again,
I yell his name to save me, but he
doesn't come...

I wake up, he's not here to protect
me anymore...

I'm so alone.

All my fault

The bad man raped me all while

he was in the next room, I can't

stop blaming myself for what that

man did to me and I feel like such

a dirty whore. I know that it's not

his fault because he didn't know.....

but he should have saved me!

Suicide

You have know idea what

it feels like to walk past a sharp

object and wonder what would

happen if you were to just slide

it across you wrist, or to

have a simple head ache and go to

take a couple pills and as you

dump them in your hand you

wonder why you shouldn't just

take a few more, you don't know

what it feels like...you don't

feel the hurt.

Alone

They say there's someone out there for

everyone, but deep down I know
I'm meant for no one and I'll always
be alone, And that scares me. I don't
want to be alone, I'm afraid to be alone.

In Your Eye's

In your eye's I found love,

In your eye's I found hate,

In your eye's I found beauty, but

In your eye's I was sadly misplaced.

Loss of innocents

Every day the pain gets worse because your not with me,

some days the pain gets so intense that I can barely breath.
Every night I lay in my room alone and cry, and think
so sadly of how badly I really want to die.
And every night when the world goes to sleep,
I lay wake and think, I remember that night clearly,
I was fourteen and you were my brother's best friend.
Everyone was sound to sleep but we were awake and
made love in my room on my bed.
Then one day I told you I loved you and you said it too
but words were just wasted cause that wasn't true.
You soon broke my heart and left me here alone, leaving
me behind to face the cold cruel world on my own.
Your the only one that I want by my side and no matter
what happens I'll unfortunately love you until the day I die.

Lonly Grave

Maybe this will be the night

that I don't wake up and

if I don't, then I want you

to spit on my Grave to let me

know that you never cared!

Helpless

It just seems like you build your whole

life around them,

and when there gone your walls

come crashing down and your left

feeling helpless and alone....
sadly I know how this feels and it hurts, so
much more than you can explain.

Blood

I made everyone believe

I stopped cutting myself....

Truth is I've just gotten

better at hiding the scars.

And I'll cut myself once

for everyday he's not

with me!

It hurts

I'm trying to be okay, I really am

but it hurts so much and the pain
gets worse every day.

It's even become a war everyday
to fight back the tears....
and I'm afraid I'm losing.

Forget

How am I suposed to just forget

the way it felt when he held me,

touched me, or just kissed me?

He's not mine... he never was

and he never will be, so why

can't I just let him go?

Stop

Know matter what I do

I can't seem to stop

crying over him.

Can't let go

I love someone who's hurt me
again and again, I know that
I shouldn't, but I can't seem
to let him go!

Not coming back

I loved him and let him go

but he didn't come back to me

which means he was never

really mine to love.

I have to face it.....

he will never be mine,

and I'll always be alone.