So you know what I said. " Goodbye to him forever. " Well about a Monday ago he showed up, no phone call, no nothing he just showed up. It took me forever to gain the courage to even leave my room to see him, but when I did... Nothing. I felt nothing, at least I thought I felt nothing. Could this mean I'm over it, over him?!? So we talked awhile and then in a serous voice I asked Why did you come back? He told me that he's been thinking about me and the way we said goodbye and that he wanted to apologize for hurting me, he also said that he's not with her anymore. I didn't care. It soon got late and I told him that its alright if he stayed. We got to talking in my room and soon he fell asleep on my bed I thought about it for a moment and then decided that it wouldn't be weird and just let him sleep with me. The next day he went home but came back the next day. And stayed a few days. See he was my brothers friend so I couldn't just say no, and besides I missed his friendship ( That's it, just the Friendship ) So Friday came around and my brother had to work and the rest of my family went shopping.... We were alone. but hey we were friends it wasn't weird. He asked what I wanted to do, I suggested a nice game of Poker, which kinda turned into a dirty game of Strip Poker. We were both down to nothing but our skin and we had to start betting other things like a kiss or something, we were on our last hand and he lost but I didn't know what I wanted, then I said " what about Sex on the water bed " (AKA my parents bed) he said if that's what you want. It wasn't passionate or loving, It was just hard core sex which may I add only lasted about five minutes, I said things I would never had said before, It was tense and it was AMAZING. When it was over I got up, looked at him and said Good Game. I didn't feel the old time butter flys or that warm feeling inside knowing I was with him. I felt nothing, It meant Nothing... To me anyway. Later I noticed him texing someone on his phone, and I kinda had the suspicion that he was still with her, and again I didn't care, If he is still with her he cheated on her with me which in a weird way makes me smile. He went home last night, said he would be back today, but even if he doesn't like I kinda think he wont, It wont matter because I'm finally okay. Oh the Crazy Things.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Crazy Things
So you know what I said. " Goodbye to him forever. " Well about a Monday ago he showed up, no phone call, no nothing he just showed up. It took me forever to gain the courage to even leave my room to see him, but when I did... Nothing. I felt nothing, at least I thought I felt nothing. Could this mean I'm over it, over him?!? So we talked awhile and then in a serous voice I asked Why did you come back? He told me that he's been thinking about me and the way we said goodbye and that he wanted to apologize for hurting me, he also said that he's not with her anymore. I didn't care. It soon got late and I told him that its alright if he stayed. We got to talking in my room and soon he fell asleep on my bed I thought about it for a moment and then decided that it wouldn't be weird and just let him sleep with me. The next day he went home but came back the next day. And stayed a few days. See he was my brothers friend so I couldn't just say no, and besides I missed his friendship ( That's it, just the Friendship ) So Friday came around and my brother had to work and the rest of my family went shopping.... We were alone. but hey we were friends it wasn't weird. He asked what I wanted to do, I suggested a nice game of Poker, which kinda turned into a dirty game of Strip Poker. We were both down to nothing but our skin and we had to start betting other things like a kiss or something, we were on our last hand and he lost but I didn't know what I wanted, then I said " what about Sex on the water bed " (AKA my parents bed) he said if that's what you want. It wasn't passionate or loving, It was just hard core sex which may I add only lasted about five minutes, I said things I would never had said before, It was tense and it was AMAZING. When it was over I got up, looked at him and said Good Game. I didn't feel the old time butter flys or that warm feeling inside knowing I was with him. I felt nothing, It meant Nothing... To me anyway. Later I noticed him texing someone on his phone, and I kinda had the suspicion that he was still with her, and again I didn't care, If he is still with her he cheated on her with me which in a weird way makes me smile. He went home last night, said he would be back today, but even if he doesn't like I kinda think he wont, It wont matter because I'm finally okay. Oh the Crazy Things.
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